i really want these but i don't htink i can get them cos of evil payment. (@_@; argh.. dammit. blah!! **cries**

(@_@; bleh. i can't seem to win any videogame auctions. (@_@; evil evil videogame bidders.. (@_@; they hike up the price so high.. i hope someone will outbid me on project justice though. (@_@; dammit.. i didn't read closely enough and didn't see that they only ship to the states... er.. canada, not too far of right? oh well, i have like three days to be outbid. i won't have to worry. (#_#) stupid last minute stalker bidders.

i'm tired.. ahh... my friend is making me a harry potter scarf, hurrah! gryffindor, yeah!! i like to be ravenclaw, but gryffindor has nicer colours... so gryffindor it is. with tassles. hahaha.

must ask jordyn for printer transfer so i may start on akira doll.. jordyn, if you are reading this, please bring a sheet tomorrow and i will pay you the cost of whatever it costs. that would be awesome. leave a comment if you want. no one ever comments. (@_@;

DOUJISOUP comes next tuesday. (@_@; i want to cry some more.

Today was another of those really uneventful days. I've been playing too much of my beloved Dreamcast. I LOVE YOU! SEGA LOVE. Hey Kei, did you know? There is a Sakura Taisen store, yes, an entire store, in Ikebukuro. I totally missed it and the Sega arcade when I went to Japan last year. ;_; Shiku shiku. How lame. >_< Arg. Next time, I'll take you there! Ha ha Sakura Taisen Freak. (^^;

Wow! We have a history exam next week. Oh no. I'm so busy this month on the weekends. That's why I'm being so lazy and procrastinating. I still haven't written my script yet. I really want to, but I just can't draw Kamijo. Ah--- But Emiru, Machi, and Mayu all look totally cute. I can't draw anything serious. *groan* I was just looking at Gardener's (Koyar's? @_@;; huh? Ah- @_@ Confusing when I haven't met these people in real life) blog and she posted that picture you drew for her. It's weird, but at that moment, I realized how different our artwork has turned out ne. We started at the same time, so I suspect you will surpass me in development. I don't think I can get any better. I mean, I don't think I can get past a cutsy style. Yea, that's it. Oh well. X_X; But, I'm satisfied with what I'm doing now, I suppose. Next year, I'm already thinking about what I want to do for Doujisoup. I want to draw something that is a bit more experimental than this year. Remember how it started with different layouts and such (this year's story?) but somehow it ended being much more conservative layout than last year. (^^; Er, bleh. Okay, you know what? I'm just rambling. I'm going to shut up now and get some homework done or some script thinking done.

Which female jrocker are you? Quiz by OM : Indira

i got her.. (@_@; i didn't cheat either. haha. weird. hahaha... i didn't even think she was on the list?? i didn't realize.. until.. i saw the very last question... i htink i got her cos i took the whiny question and designing clothing.. but shiina ringo plays lots of instruments.. oh well. (^^;; oh, i also picked bathroom. didn't notice that til now.

yeah! i love shiina ringo so much! (@___@;

saico, i was looking for you online today.. but you weren't there... (@_@; i hope you sent DOUJISOUP.. i was busy playing PSO. insane. yeah! i figured out how to do it.. make my Dreamcast play DivX movies.. that is.. but it was so confusing. (@_@; trying to assemble the disk myself. i didn't understand. finally, i gave up and just downloaded the program and used the tutorial. (@_@; and it worked.. ureshii na..

next comes boot disc! yeah! maybe not. haha. (^^; i dunno. DivX player is very good already. i was looking up maracas tho, for my DC. and i wonder if i should geta replacement cover. (@_@; prolly a waste of money. oh well. on snday, if i have time, i'll go to see the guy at Lucky 97 and see if he will import any of this stuff for me, so i don't have to pay insane shipping costs. (@_@; i think he has a pink replacement case.. ah.. swapping guts for DC scares me tho. (@_@; scares me a lot. which is why i will never get a mod chip of any kind. (@_@;

i feel successful today since i finally finished that insane 3-D modeling project in Cinema 4-D at school. i hate 3-D animation. i HATE IT. (@_@;; bleh... but i wish they would move the animation tables into the smaller computer room. at least. three. haha. so me and jordyn and colleen can sit together. we were talking earlier about how the atmosphere in the smaller room is so much nicer.. they have music on, and the other people actually do work, and it's nice and warm and small and cozy, and ther people aren't sutpid an swearing all the time. (@_@; i swear a lot, especially as of late, since i am so stressed out, but it's still annoying to hear. (@_@; been trying to cut down lately. it's just a stage...?

i am doing badly in physics again, and i think my social mark is dropping too. (@_@; argh. i hate school. i hate physics. (@_@;;; i should sleep more...

meanwhile, i'm going to try and finish some projects...

On an impulse, I went to see a film at 9 PM and there were only two really good parts in it. @_@; It's late, tired


Which Fruits Basket Character are you?

I'm Hana! This is great. I like Hana. I like Uo-chan too. I wish I could be as cool as her! XD



Which female jrocker are you? Quiz by OM : Indira

And then I took this other quiz and I became LLV. I love LLV! I love you LLV! I love you so much! And she is releasing an album this next month because she knows that I love her and I want to hear her new music. Shena Ringo knows that I love her too. They both know that and are releasing CDs during the same month because they know that I love to get broke and cry because I can't afford their albums. ;_; *rambling* I rarely post the results of these quizzes. (^^; But, I found the quizzes I took today to be amusing. But then again, maybe because it's midnight.

Anyway, it's a big relief to me.... but I have decided to drop English. I skipped English to day to speak to a counselor. I made an appointment for last week, but I decided to do a drop in because I felt so undecided about everything. I didn't want to take the class, and I was unsure. But now I'm confident! I don't need it. I'm just going to get an AA in Individual Studies, which is more appropriate than Liberal Arts anyway! There is a great sense of relief. Now I have an hour each day at school to write my Lareine script. I'm very happy.

Also, I called San Jose State this afternoon and my application has become: ACCEPTANCE PENDING. So I just need to pass my math and speech classes and I will be in. ;_; *cries* So much relief was felt today. I feel a bit more at ease as I have come to confirm somethings as true. I doubt myself so much. I'm confident about other things, but the majority of the time, I seriously doubt my judgement. However, to get me to change my mind about something is very difficult, even if I feel unsure. I find that whenever I am in a pinch and someone offers a solution, I don't take that idea as THE ONE until after a lot of thought. A lot of times I feel, I'M RIGHT, and others, I DON'T KNOW...

No one comments here. But that's nice to think that there aren't many people reading this. I know for sure that there are 4 people reading this. And I don't mind having those 4 people read my thoughts. It's okay. I suppose. ^-^

I'm not sure if Jeff reads this shared journal, but YES! I'm going to Fanime Con okay! I'll see you there? Maybe? ^_^ Please come to support BAAU DOWN and DOUJISOUP.

I've been playing an episode a day of Sakura Taisen 3 since last week. I'm on the 10th chapter. This game is really long, but it doesn't feel LOOONG like ST2. It is really fun, and I'm amazed at how time quickly passes. Lobelia is the number one person right now on my status chart. I wonder how that happens. 80% of the time, I don't know what to say to her. But I didn't have a problem saying right things to Glycine, which is even weirder. @_@; Weird. AH--, I'm going to go to bed now. Good night! Good night! Farewell Adieu to You!

finally! we have the animethon submission ready for the guidebook. it makes me so happy i want to cry. in fact, i think i will **tears pour out from dried up, incrusted eyes** today, i am going to bed early though.. yes.. colleen had guilt-tripped me into it.. hahaha..

i'm tired and sorry as hell.

today i watched one piece and saw kid zoro. hahaha... he is absolutely adorable... LoL... great kid, great kid.

yes! DOUJISOUP is finally out! (@_@;; i can't wait ot get the books. (@_@; **cries again** ahh.. i'm having migraines over it. hahaha... that could be lack of sleep and frustration and stress.. but this morning in promo arts clss it suddenly subsided and comes back once in awhile to stab me, but i am better!! whahaha!

today, my mom bought me a new watch. it's not digital, but i will no be lost in time any more! yay!!! so many excalmation points in this entry. i am forcing myself awake with vietnamese super-coffee.

i'ms tuck in a bit of a registration crisis... bleh. i'm not really sure what to do. (@_@; dammit, i should have made an appointment with the counselor ages ago. stupid stupid stupid.... (@_@; they're so busy now too. i want to take webdesign 20, but i don't want to be in a class of people mostly a grade under me. (@_@; i dont' like younger people.. (@_@; i feel bad for it, but i prefer people the same age and older. plsu, i already know a lot of html etc.. i just wanna learn dhtml and flash, and i wonder if they even teach any cgi stuff.. bleh. if only it were a semestered class, i would semester it with web design 30. that would be too good.

i also have an empty slot and i don't know if i should take photography 30. (@_@; if i took it, it would be simply for the credits and the full 30-level grade 12 course. (@_@; but i don't like it. and i don't like the teacher. and i kind of want a spare. but... i don't know. i don't know... i don't want to waste all the hard work i did in that class this year. and the chance for good portflio work, but i don't know. (@_@; i might not even end up at an art college.

i bothers me so much right now. hence, the evil migraine from hell.

the other thing i was looking at.. (@_@; i might be crazy. i probably am. (@_@. what the hell.. okay.. finish the sentence..) i was looking at antarctic press' website today. (@_@; i had this idea, that maybe i could somehow.. something.. there... yeah... (@_@; i don't know. so uncertain. bleh... i don't know. it's just htat my life is geared so totally towards that way, and i'm not even certain i am rightfor it. i'm not as talented as i could be, can't compete or work really well with others, and i'm disorganized and muddled as hell. i'm such a ditz soemtimes. i don't know if i can handle it. it's just that when we went to go see that one guy, i forget his name already. (@_@; argh. at the university.. the incredible guy who draws incredible cigarro and cerveja. i'll look up his name later. well, anyways, when we went to go see him, i remember him saying something baout antarctic press and how they're geared more towards manga style, and i quote "like ninja high school". at the time, i laughed in my head, cos i thought to myself "ninja high school SUCKS." (no offense.. (@_@; that's just my opinion.) so i dunno.. i was just crazy. and i looked up antarctic press. (@_@; i don't know why. i guess for a moment there, i thought i could submit something... i don't know.. (@_@; thinking so far ahead makes me nervous.

so yeah. that's what's in my head right now, i suppose. (@_@; the thought of graduating scares me. i want to, but don't. there's just so many things that i love/hate.

**twiddles thumbs..** anyways, let's write soemthing more cheerful. oh, i want to thank everyone who has preordered DOUJISOUP so far. and all the great people i work with. (@_@; and all the great support from everyone around.. steve the doujipope, DK, Urs, Charlene, Cheryl, Negar... (@_@; i love you guys so much. oh, and thank you, An's boxes for her 45s, since you will be carrying wonderful SOUP to me and jordyn.

i'm excited, really... a lot..

i wonder if i wrote too much for one day. lots of unneccesary words and thoughts, but oh well. to bed i go. goodnight! this would be entry number 10, i think.

Never before had I had such a perfect Friday!!! The books are finally all done by the printer. I went today to pick up two preliminary copies. I'll get all 298 copies tomorrow. Go Go Doujisoup! The book is just so wonderful. The cream colored paper goes very well with the black & white artwork. The cover came out very nicely. Just like on the computer (I'm just so amazed @_@; I can't believe I figured it out so that the cover fit @_@ Good god. @_@; It was a lucky guess I made on the thickness of the side bind), the colors are rich and vibrant. This is made even more beautiful by the gloss that's over the paper. I'm just so amazed. Everyone's artwork stepped by 100X this book and the printing job went up 100X more. I'm happy this is the year Doujisoup circle makes an effort to let the public know more about the book. Ureshii. Please order a book! There is still time for preorder to get free shipping! (^-^ DOUJISOUP

Next I finished up all of my Hikago doujinshi! I finally did it! All of the inking and pencils done! All that needs to be done is the tweaking of the images and the adding of text. BUT! Do not fret, I have the omake page all ready and done. It's in Japanese. I don't plan to add in any greys because I want the omake page to have a rough feeling to it. (^^; I hope you can enjoy! SAICOINK'S HIKAGO DOUJINSHI OMAKE PAGE GO GO GO!. The main story I did is kind of really weird. You will enjoy it more if you knew about Alien 9, but you can still appreciate if you didn't. A lot of inside jokes that only I and maybe Kei will know about. I think. @_@; My profile is messed up too! Anyway, tomorrow I'll post up previews of the profile and one page from the main story. I don't know when the book is going to be all completed (not until after Kei's birthday ne), but Kei is going to do the layout, so I trust that it WILL be printed at some point. @_@;

Also, today I went up to the city and ate at a nice nice French restuarant. But the two above events overshadow this. I went to Kinokuniya. After finishing my Hikago doujinshi, seeing the Doujisoup all done and printed, a lot of the stuff at Kino seemed very boring. @_@; I got an eraser (finally X_X;), some screentone, and a black marker (finally X_X;). I'll start work on Lareine doujinshi after the editting of Hikago is done! Need to call Tep! Tep! Do you read this journal? You better be home tomorrow....

i'm not avoiding you saico... my internet was down yesterday. (@_@; it screwed up a lot of things..... bleh. it came back up at around 9, but then i was too tired to put on icq. (@_@;

my dad and i went shopping. at first, it was for my little sister's birthday, but then suddenly he remembered my mom's birthday came first.. (@_@; we ended up buying nothing tho. wait, we got a lottery ticket. how stupid. argh dad. what a lame gift. he better get something else too. as for me, i was going to make a cake thing with my siblings.. dad better get something better. **tsk tsk** men. (@_@; stupid.

i told him to get jewelry but he insisted that he wasn't sure or not she'd like it. (@_@; bleh. oh, another thing i saw at the mall... there were these shirts that had really nice design, and $10 a shirt.. but they were men's.. dammit.. too big for me. (@_@; i would have bought them, but i wanted to save money.. plus the cashiers were looking at me funny. they seemed like real snots.. it was so close to closing time anyways. bleh. i should have bought them anyhow. (@_@; oh well. now i have money for cake mix or fruits or glaze or something.

right now i am at school.. in promotional arts class. i really should be working. (@_@; i keep slacking til the last minute and end up making these crappy ass posters. (@_@; i should be working. i haven't gotten picked this year, and i really only have one more chance to be.. (@_@; bleh. i always seem to be one of the last few people to be looked at.. i always just miss the chance by a hair. (@_@; i'm always one of the last few considered, but it's either that my poster is incomplete, or cos it's too light hearted. drama teachers at this school are goddamn depressing. and then when i go to see the productions, it's just as light-hearted as my poster, but they ALWAYS ALWAYS pick the dark themes.. bleh.. i should have learned something from that. i'm so stupid about that.. never knowing what the client really wants. i guess for this next poster, think of a dark theme.. i can't dot hat though. (@_@; dark themes are stupid and clichéd.

i guess i could try something for the yearbook cover too. (@_@; i'm so lowly in this class tho. (@_@; everyone is so much better than me. it's the same for photography.. the only people who suck worse than me are basically anyone who does less work than me. (@_@;

maybe i will take out a camera today and take some pictures in photography class. (@_@; for fun. (@_@; and to be able to walk outside. i don't feel like being at school today. (@_@; i keep wasting money on bad coffee at the cafeteria. bleh.

BTW, the comment thing does not work in netscape. it doesn't show up... it shows up on saico's blog, but it doesn't show up here. bleh. the script looks right. i don't know what's going on. (@_@; argh. netscape. and the explorer at school is really crappy and always dies on me.. so i am wasting a journal turn writing this.. (@_@;; ladeeda.

OSU! I haven't seen Kei in two days *shiku shiku*. Yesterday, the internet was down and today I was so busy. >_<; Arg, I still haven't gotten a chance to scan in the Hikago doujinshi work I'm doing, but I have 5 pages inked so far. Only 3 more pages to pencil and ink! I have one panel on the 5 already inked pages to fix. I'm getting better at doing hair...! Yes! I wonder if I could finish it tonight? Anyway, I think Kei is avoiding me because she doesn't want to scan in her one page of Hikago doujinshi. >_< BLEH! Anyway, if Kei makes an entry to Bella Torta tomorrow, I'll put up one or two scans of my doujinshi for you to see. After Hikago: LAREINE DOUJINSHI SCRIPT! Ganbaruzo!

This weekend I got a lot of great stuff in the mail! ^_^ It feels like the Post Office is rewarding me for finishing my finals (though the issue of whether I did them well is an entirely different matter). I got some Hikago ESEGOYA circle doujinshi in the mail. Wow. They bring my own doujinshi to shame. I'm so sad. (;_; weeps). Am expecting more doujinshi to come. Also got:
Hikago trading cards (too many extras, must sell off @_@;)
Hikago 1 DVD - First Pressing XD Yay!
Sakura Taisen - Sumire Retirement Spring Kayou Show 2002 Live CD - It was okay, but the DVD is probably going to be way better XD
Youjeen - The Doll - Very hard rocking album from Korean singer, Youjeen, produced by Ex-Luna Sea J. I think out of all the out of LS material it's members has done, this is my favorite thing. (^_^; Go Youjeen!

And as promised, on Monday arrived:

I've been playing this and Sakura Taisen 3. I suppose I won't meet my goal of completing ST2 (the ending battles were just so long @_@;). ST4 was short, but I had a lot of fun playing it. In terms of fun, it is a lot more fun than ST2, which was not very fun, but was very long. ST4 didn't really feel like a game, and there were a lot of things that they could've done with the game, but overall, the experience was satisfying..!

Goes back to drawing Hikago doujinshi and playing ST3. ^-^;

wahh. today was a big waste of time. (@_@;; oh well.

if you want to read about yesterday, go to ju's blog. yeah. don't feel like repeating, so..

wow. ocean sounds fun. (@_@; here, it is snowing like mad. SNOW!! I HATE IT!! i wish it would rain more here. (@_@; makes me want to cry. RAIN!! THUNDER!! what's lame is that it melts right after. it comes, and blinds you, and melts right after. and in the morning, it freezes, so i can slip and fall on my ass and be embarassed about it.

but today, i bought a paper file thing.. it has a really weird design. want to see it? i know you do..

hahaha.. it's so strange. what's going on?? i dont' know... i don't know... crazy!!!

i saw lots of nice pucca stuff there at that store too. (@_@; DK likes pucca i think.

people i miss today: jing, jojo, DK (i haven't seen you guys or talked to you in a long time..), cheryl (still in vancouver), negar (lives in vancouver), laura (i never hear from you!). **sobs**

want to work hard on doujingshi... must force self to work hard on doujinshi. but i have this urge to wander off and leave my siblings alone at home to go to the museum. (@_@; i miss the museum a lot. **shiku shiku**

i hope i can go to japan this summer... **starts singing robot song**. argh. juu. you have it stuck in my head.

Is it already 4:OOPM? Oh my goodness. How time flies as we waste away...

Today I went up to Half Moon Bay and looked at the tide pools. Of course, as low tide was at 5AM, coming to the beach at 9AM, we found that a lot of the pools were overflowing. My purpose was not to see the tide pools today, but rather to just breathe in the ocean air. Sometimes I miss the ocean so much. I don't miss an ocean like the ones in Florida or the ones down in Mexico. There is something nice about the cold air and wind of the CA ocean. It was very fun to walk up and down the rocks. I found lots of dried jelly fish scattered across the sand. They are still alive. If you put them in the water, they come back to life. Sea creatures never fail to amaze me. It's too bad the pools were all covered up. Last year when I went in the spring, I saw a lot of creatures like otopuses, crabs, and even a cnidarian or two.

After going to Moss Beach, we went to the fresh fish store. Got some fresh fish. The owner was boiling some crab. We bought one. It was very hot and fresh. So, we took that crab out to another beach, the one that I went to a lot as a kid, and ate the crab while watching the waves. The wind was very cold and froze my hands, but it was worth it. You wouldn't get the same kind of feeling eating crab in a restaurant.

Anyway, enough of that. I really wish I am at the ocean again. @_@; Arg. @_@; Er, today I promised to have a sort of tribute to The Ventures, a cool guitar band. A lot of Japanese artists covered Ventures songs as they were very popular during the 60s and 70s. Here are some of them! Check it out! :


VENTURES TRIBUTE

Ventures - Stranger in Midousuji
Ouyana Feifei - Ame no Midousuji
Nagias Yuuko - Kyoto Bujyou
NOTE: I couldn't find a complete version of the original Ventures songs for these two covers, but in the Stranger in Midousuji mp3, the first portion contains the original of Ouyang Feifei's song and it transposes to Kyoto Bujyou.

The Ventures - Futari no Ginza
Izumi Masako & Yamauchi Ken - Futari no Ginza
NOTE: I love the sound of the cover ^-^

The Ventures - Nagasaki Memories
Nagisa Yuuko - Nagasaki Bojyou

The Ventures - Koyubi no Omoide
Itou Yukari - Koyubi no Omoide

The Ventures - Cherry Pink and Apple Blossom White
NOTE: This is a song from my childhood. XD I know the song is old, but I used to listen to this tape of Vietnamese music called SHOTGUN (a compilation tape) and this song was in it, I think. I remember it being there, but you know... my memory is a bit shoddy, but I swear it was.. *rambles*

hahaha.. today, i was vaccuuming.. and i swung the vaccuum head really hard and it hit the corner of a table. (^^;;; hahaha.. the light in the vaccuum cleaner shattered. i didn't notice til after too. scary.. it was funny tho..

aww.. (@_@; expected to meet everyone tomorrow, but jordyn (and most probably christine) cannot make it. (@_@; bleh.. well, hopefully, juu and gardener will be there to costume hunt with me. we'll have to find the place on our own tho.

saico!! you finish manga so quickly.. (@_@; i jealous..

haha... i programmed my ICQ to say "FLCL" everytime someone sends a message!!! and when someone comes online, haruko says "nani ite?". and the beginning of the song carnival comes on when i open it. hahaa... matches with my current wallpaper..

we should totally put up doujinshi work son this page... Doujisoup, Hikago, BAAU doujin samples...

Osu. Saicoink desu. This is my first entry to the shared journal between Kei and I. Yoroshiku! Bella Torta is the name our doujinshi circle. Maybe we should feature our doujinshi works here, eh, Kei?

I can't believe you downloaded that Naruto song. I've been waiting for weeks to download it, and you were able to download it out of a whim. If you dad likes Ventures stuff... do you have a song called Kyoto Doll? @_@; Can you make me Ventures mp3s? @_@ If you are downloading more Bis, try to find "Love will tear us apart". It's a cover of the Joy Division song. That reminds me, I should try to find some Thrill Kill Cult mp3s. @_@; I always wondered what the music was like because the name was interesting.

When that show was showing, Home Movies, I couldn't watch it. But if there is a tribute of Franz Kafka, I suppose I have to watch it now. I don't like Gravitation music. @_@; DEVO is good.

Speaking of Franz, I haven't read his stuff since high school. I really miss [The Trial]. I think I'm going to pick it up again and read again, if I can find the book. If not, I'll get another book from him. Ah-- Franz. Er, I better hurry up and finish Anna Karenina first though. I have 400 more pages to go. It was a very engrossing novel, but I became too busy to finish it. It was interesting enough for me to say that I want to read [War and Peace] or move on to a different Russian author and read [Crime and Punishment]. XD I wish I didn't have to take American History, I really wanted to take that Russian History class. >_< Arg.

I was just watching the Kaijin Bessou Kayou Show and I noticed how the actor that played Sakura's father would be perfect as Touya Meijin if Hikago was ever a live musical or stage play. Oh my god! Could you imagine that Kei? Hikaru no Go... THE MUSICAL! Arg! I wish my knowledge of Broadway song lyrics was not so narrow or else I would break out in some amusing lyrical parodies.

Anyway, it's late now, so good night! ^-^ Onyasuminyasai!!

testing out multiple entries and how they look....

it's kei.. i finished it! i hope the layout looks okay. (@_@; it's slightly too big for 800x600. don't ask me why. (@_@; maybe i will try to fix it later.. (@_@;

testing.. testing...